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To be or NOT to be???

2009-09-10T05:06:00.000-07:00

"w.e.f. oct onwards, you'd have to take up blah blah blah and blah..."

I can only say OKAY....since I did not know how to respond....The next day, I told A that she assigned me this job which is blah blah blah and blah.....

"WOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! Such a tough job for u, dear...."said A....

"You should have told her that you can't handle it......You should raise out your concern and problems and............................." said Y.

"You can still tell joke ar???Don't you think that you should start to worry about this???"said W.

"What's your plan???"asked H & D.

How I wish someone could help me to decide what should I do..........

Pictures...

2009-09-04T08:27:00.000-07:00

People say, pictures speak thousand words...

But for me, picture only indicates a very clear truth...., which is....

if you are in the photo, you mean everything...

BUT

when you are not in the photo, means you are NOTHING....
You are totally deleted from the memory.....

NO news means good news???

2009-09-04T08:04:00.000-07:00

No news means good news....What if there's news??? What does that mean when u suddenly got to know someone about his or her news??

Should you congrats that person and feel happy about it??

OR

Should tears wash away the dirt that left on your face for almost 1 year???

Because of you...???!!!

2009-09-04T08:02:00.000-07:00

Because of you,

I started to write blog one year ago.

Because of you,

I stopped writing blog for few months....

Because of you,

I start to write blog again tonight..

Because of you,

I wont write anything about you after tonight...

cloudy day....

2009-03-04T19:33:00.000-08:00

Today is cloudy day...Everything happened just like the weather....

Suddenly :

miss the moment of quarelling...

miss the happy moment....

miss the moment of sharing happy and unhappy things...

miss the moment of helping each other...

miss the spending moment...

miss the smiling face....

miss the eating face....

miss the face of singing and playing keyboard...

miss the caring face....

miss the angry face....

miss the sleepy face....

miss the blur blur face....

miss the frustrated face...

miss everything which shouldn't be remembered anymore....

When will the sky be sunny again????

weather detemines mood......

2009-03-04T05:59:00.000-08:00

That day, he asked me whether I believed one's mood can change according to weather. He said when it's cloudy, people's mood would tend to be moody.....When it's sunny day, one would feel good....

He told me he liked cloudy day as it's not that hot and not that wet.... He told me cloudy day should listen to oldies to suit the relaxing mood....so serene.....

He said his father liked sunny day which he thought that it was pretty weird.....

I remembered I told him....Last few weeks....when he told me something, it was rainny day and my mood really determined by that thunderstorm...

This morning,it was sunny day....I felt glad as my mood didn;t change according to weather...irony..isn't it??

It's night..........and it rains all of a sudden...so heavily.....as if the sky cries for someone..........

Ban ISLAND CAFE in ss2, PJ

2009-02-25T05:12:00.000-08:00

There are so many things in Island Cafe which are terrible.....

Nasi Lemak

The gravy of the chicken drumstick is horrible....You can't even put it into your mouth because it tastes like SHIT..!!!

I actually can't believe that this dish is their recommended food....

The groundnuts are not crunchy and smelly...

The sambal doesn't taste like what sambal should be tasted like...

Overall, I grade this "Recommeneded food" as F (fail)

2. Coleslaw salad

It's not as fresh as what vegetables should be....

It's expensive yet doesn't taste good...(what a shame)

The portion is not as big as what you see in the menu...

3. Service

When you want to make order, the waiters won't bother to serve you...You would have the feeling of begging them to take your order..

The waiter will show you the face as if you owe their money...

The food will be served after half an hour or one hour...

Waiter will even forget what you have ordered....

In general, the comment for their service is "No. 1"....

Is that luck??

2009-02-23T21:55:00.000-08:00

People always complaint that they do not get what they want in their life. Maybe

that's called LIFE....However, some people do always get things that they want in

their life and majority would say that it's God's guidance or they themselves are

smart to make things belong to them....Another phenomena is, people always

try to get what they want in their life without considering the consequence of

successfully getting that particular thing or fail to get that particular thing. Well, many

people would refer that as TRYING LUCK in which they would see how lucky or

unlucky they are.

Trying to get something which is not thing that one wants is difficult because one

might not have the will to get it. You might have this question in your mind, "Then,

why do you want to get it? Why do you want to make your life miserable?" When

one lives in a community, one cannot act based on what one likes or dislikes. One has

to bear in mind many aspects of life in order for one to do something. But, when one

gets the thing that is not supposed to be happy, one will face dilemma to do or not

to do....

study study study.....

2009-02-18T19:50:00.000-08:00

FALL IN LOVE OR FALL IN HATE???

STUDYING

MEMORISING

COMPREHENDING

WRITING

READING

TALKING

EATING WHILE STUDYING

NOISE WHILE STUDYING

FEELING SLEEPY WHILE STUDYING

FEELING BORED WHILE STUDYING

MISSING SOMEONE WHILE STUDYING

THINKING SOMETHING UNRELATED WHILE STUDYING

it's killing me....!!!

2009-02-16T00:46:00.000-08:00

I just want to be normal....That's it...

Why can't I be a normal person when I want to be?

Why can't I be a special and outstanding person when I want to be?

Why things always don't fulfill my needs when I want those to be like what I want??

Why can't I get what I want when I think that i could get it?

Why can't I be like others?

Why can't he do it to others?

Why can't he ask me before doing anything?

Why are there so many whys???

I hate WHYs!!!

leave me alone -part 2

2009-02-10T23:11:00.000-08:00

can leave me alone??

How can I not worry and consider about that??It's all about me!!

"What do you want??" you asked.

Do you think I can really answer you honestly when you asked like that?Do you think I can really choose to do things that I like when you don't like??

Just leave me alone and let me do things that I like...Will you??

I think I surely can't see you nod ur head for the above statement forever and ever..

Leave me alone!!

2009-02-10T03:45:00.000-08:00

Does anyone think of the consequences of the phrase "leave me alone" when one utters that out to someone???

When is my turn to be left alone??

Just leave me alone!!!

ouch ouch ouch....!!!

2009-02-08T20:52:00.000-08:00

ouch......hands suddenly bruises everywhere....

ouch......suddenly suffered from running nose....errrrrrrrrrrrr.....can't breathe....!!!

ouch......suddenly suffered from coughing......but thanks God,it's just minor
coughing...

ouch......suddenly felt so dizzy and headache because of the stupid Genting
Highlands route....

ouch......suddenly ears blocked and can't hear things properly because of the
pressure suffered along the way back from stupid Genting Highlands...

ouch.......suddenly suffered from stomachache......very painful............

What happen to this Ox year...???!!

.....................

2009-02-04T21:09:00.000-08:00

This is the first time I don't know what title should I put for this post...

................speechless....................

Someone seems like forgetting everything that someone said before........

Someone seems don't want anything..............

Someone seems don't have someone in the eyes of someone......

Again......again.......again...................

Right or wrong decision???

2009-02-03T22:00:00.000-08:00

Sitting down and thinking......Am I making the right or wrong decision??

Many people say 2009 is not a good year to graduate and search for jobs....due to recession....

Everyone says teaching profession is the right way and the only stable job in this critical moment...

However, not everyone would think the same..

Money

Preference

Interest

Family

These are all the factors that determine one's future path...

It's so dark....so blurr.....so insecure..........so stress.........

couldn't see at all.....hard to predict and plan............................

Again, AM I MAKING THE RIGHT OR WRONG DECISION???

Happy Chinese Nu YEar...

2009-02-03T00:42:00.000-08:00

Oh My Gosh......Chinese New year is a nightmare for me as I can really grow fat because of eating in just 1 WEEK...yes...you are right..1 week....well, this year, i celebrate Chinese New Year in Singapore with my parents,brother since my uncle and family are staying in Singapore...Basically, celebrating lunar new year in singapore should be fun and enjoyable...BUT, though there are 80% of Chinese in the land of Singapore, it's quite quiet and not as happening as Chinese Malaysian who celebrate in Malaysia. Singaporean do not practice "open house" and thus, it is not as happening as i thought.

Unlike past few years, for me, this year's lunar new year is just like that only..Nothing's special...

Maybe because i didn't go back to hometown and celebrated with friends and relatives....

Maybe i wasn't in the mood of celebrating new year.....

Maybe i had some troubles and problems that haunt me throghout the lunar new year.....

Maybe i've been thinking too much.........

Maybe there's a lot of maybe......

Whatever.....The only thing that made me laughed and cried was the food that i ate in the past 1 week which caused me to grow fatter...Those food are more than words to say and describe....well, maybe pictures speak thoudsand words....

What's going on??

2009-01-14T19:08:00.001-08:00

Everything seems so unreal and confusing....

What do you want??

Why do you want to do that??

When are you going to do that again???

How can you do that??

Who do you want???

Nobody knows what's going on, what happened actually..............

People....take care...!!

Memories....

2009-01-11T22:24:00.000-08:00

Everything has become memories...It was very painful at first but I knew that u r even more painful than me....

Therefore,....

Thx for appearing in my life though it's only short period....

Thx for being with me whenever I need you...

Thx for sharing my happy and sad moments....

Thx for helping me in many things......

Thx for encouraging me when I almost gave up something.....

Thx for ur love...............

Thx for ur gifts.............

Thx for letting me to share ur happy and sad moments...

Thx for EVERYTHING.....

Happy Vs Unhappy...

2009-01-06T23:04:00.000-08:00

Happy..................As this is the dream that everyone wishes to have!

Happy.................As this is a golden opportunity for many people!

Happy.................As one can earn a lot of money if one successes in this!

Happy................As one is so lucky to have relatives to help him or her!

Happy................As finally, one is different from others!

Unhappy................... As this is not everyone's dreams!

Unhappy.....................As this is not what one wants to do in the future!

Unhappy................... As one has to think of someone else's feelings of doing this!

Unhappy.................. As one doesn't think that one can do it!

Unhappy.............. As one has many things to do right now!

Unhappy............ As one doesn't want to disappoint people who love her and help her!

The beauty of Law Of Attraction!!

2009-01-05T23:18:00.000-08:00

Last Sunday I read Star newspaper and I discovered something very interesting in it. When I flipped through the Metro Sunday section, at first, only the pictures of food that attracted my attention but all of a sudden, "LAW OF ATTRACTION" immediately grabbed my interest of reading it...All the while,I thought only the word "FOOD" would grab my attention but surprisingly, I actually have the interest on the phrase of "LAW OF ATTRACTION" and I would really hope to know more about this mysterious vibrations which surround us.

Well, I admit that when i first came across this term "Law of Attraction", I didn't really believe what Michael J Losier( the author of the best-selling book "Law of Attraction") mentioned in his book. I could still remember my reaction towards what my friends told me about the universal energy. Frankly speaking, I really thought that my friends were superstitious and everything was nonsense.

HOWEVER, I started to be convinced by Law of Attraction after me myself experienced it....When i read the article in Star paper on last Sunday, I totally agreed to what the writer wrote in his article. He said, "the vibration you release carries your mood and feelings, which matches with similar vibrations of the same."

Here, I would like to share something with u guys which is about the cycle of law of attraction which I found it in newspaper.

The Cycle Of Law Of Attraction:

You observe what you recieve and have in your life (whether positive or negative)--------> While obeserving, you are sending a vibration, either negative or positive------> The Law of attraction responds to the vibration you are sending -----> As a result, you get more of what you were vibrating, whether positive or negative.

Welcome back to campus life...

2009-01-05T07:00:00.000-08:00

Can't believe that I'm back to campus life again..Is it a Happy or Sad thing????Well,it has to depend on how one thinks...

Classes just started...and everything seems like so messy...Maybe because I haven't prepared to study and still in holiday mood...Oh my...I have to wake up early in the morning again.....I hate the sound of my alarm clock..But...what can I do??I can't change things that are already fixed. I can just follow and obey...and just do it...

Assignments..assignments...and assignments...Sigh....

Study life is fun if exams and assignments are eliminated from study life.......However,i don't think this wish of mine will come true......Sigh....

Friends or Lover??!!

2008-12-29T00:40:00.000-08:00

People often say that when someone is in a relationship, one sometimes is quite hard to choose between friends and lover in certain situation....

For those who are always the winners in relationship, they won't have to face the dilemma of the above situation....as their decision would always be either friends or lover and it all depends on them...

For those who are victims or losers in relationship, they won't have to face the above dilemma too...because they will always choose lovers as they don't have any other choices...

However, for those who are neither winners or losers in relationship, they would have the difficulties in choosing between peers or lovers...They would like to choose friends..On the other hand, they would like to choose lover as well....

What should these kind of persons do and which would be the best options and solutions for them???Nobody knows......

More than words...

2008-12-16T05:43:00.000-08:00

The first time sitting in front of the laptop and looking at the screen for around 30 minutes without typing anything.... Today is a dark blue day....In fact, there are so many things to write here...about the things that happened today...about someone's feelings......

BUT.....all of a sudden,

running out of ideas to write....

becoming speechless...

things just happened too sudden...very fast...very painful...until don't know how to express in words...because everything is more than words...

The Road Not Taken??!!!

2008-12-12T08:05:00.000-08:00

"what will u do after graduating?"

1. Continue studying Master and Phd...

2. Working...

3. Getting married....

4. Help out in family business...

5. Don't know...

Congratulation to those who give the answers from 1 to 4 as they know their future pathway...

One who would give the 5th answer might be people who:

really doesn't know what should s(he) do in the future,

doesn't have objectives and dreams to be achieved in s(he) life.

is unwilling to follow what s(he) parents say.

struggles in many choices of what s(he) should do in the future.

lives in the state of denial...s(he) doesn't want to face this reality of life.

Which is the best road to take???

Nobody knows....Only God knows...

Over the rainbow

2008-12-10T07:45:00.000-08:00

Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.

There's a land that I heard of Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.

And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star and wake up where the clouds are far Behind me.

Where troubles melt like lemon drops, Away above the chimney tops.

That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly. Birds fly over the rainbow,

Why then - oh, why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,

Why, oh, why can't I?

I personally love this song and I think that it's a nice song...Don't you think so???

Beautiful rainy day...

2008-12-10T07:13:00.000-08:00

Even though today is rainy day, my mood seems to be pretty good...

Maybe because.........

-I started to believe that there's always rainbow after raining.......

OR

-Everything is controlled by GOD and the only thing that we can do is to leave everything to His mighty hands...

Life Is Just Like Acting A Movie..

2008-12-08T23:10:00.000-08:00

Before this, I would never ever understood why people would say life is like acting a movie...Until..A friend of mine told me her true story which happened in this year....

Story begins like this.......

My friend whose name is Lily...She met a guy whose name is Edward...

Before Lily dated with Edward, Edward had a gf who was with him for almost 2 years. However, due to some reasons, Edward can't be with his gf anymore and he broke up with his gf at last. Before breaking up with his gf, Edward already met Lily and they were friends at that time. At that time, Lily found out that she fell in love with Edward and so was Edward. After breaking up with his gf, Edward decided to be with Lily together...Both of them were so happy in spending time together because finally,they can be with the person whom they love.

Things in this world always don't go smooth...That's called Life.....

One rainy day, Edward was so depressed and unhappy...Lily can sense that and he tried to ask Edward what had happened to him...But....Edward didn't want to tell Lily as he didn't want Lily to be unhappy too..There was one day, Lily discovered something about Edward...This was really really a serious and big case which can lead to the break up between Edward and Lily...

From that moment onwards, Lily finally understood why Edward never wanted to tell Lily what had happened to him because.....after knowing this, it was really depressing and hurt.....But.....they would have to face it...They can;t run away from it....

At last.....................................well...in this story..I can only say that Life is just like acting a movie...

The poisonous act...

2008-12-08T03:42:00.000-08:00

Did you ever love the cruelest person in your world ??For me, I will define a cruel person as the following:

Person who can dump u just because of other person..

Person who can forget every promises that he or she had given u during the sweet moment..

Person who can hurt u deeply without ever thought of ur feelings of being hurt..

Person who can date with other person while he or she is in relationship with u..

Person whose heart is so hard until he or she can leave the person who love her or him waited alone at her house for so so so long and the cold-blooded person was with another person...

Person who can lie to the person who love his or her so much again and again...

The poisonous act in this world is to hurt persons who love u over and over again....

I think the sillest act in this world is to forgive person who hurt u so deeply..Person who hurts someone in deep would never ever wanted the victim to forgive her or never angry and hated her..This is because as long as the victim hates her,she will feel better and she won't feel guilty.. But...things in this world always don't seem to be perfect and smooth...The victim kept on telling the person that he never hated her, and even told her tht he never angry at her actions that hurt him so much in their relationship...

The only thing that cruel person can do to their victim is to leave him alone and never ever appeared in his life...Best wishes to all the victims in love relationship....